let it be mine

within this disease
of attacking thoughts
through my crowded mind
amoungst the voices
rambling out of turn
i hear you clearly
without speaking
you see inside me
though you cannot
comprehend
or even begin to unravel
the paths i designed
to escape the roads
i could not stay
its in this muddled energy
you feel truth
and now know
how i stripped of myself
and became no longer whole
all of me is written
printed and posted
all of me i kept hidden
the cure
this mental maddness
to expunge the emotion
deny the feeling
resist the punch
for my mind to let go of you
often i drift
to hold
this pain and anger
sealed in memory
i am not lost
nor misdirected
but steady and sure
i have gone the way
i know the idea
it is always been
and i am
so let it go
let it be mine
and don't judge me
that way