agony

i delve into

this undefined

emotion

left

in absence

of where

here you

once were

its suffocation

this ache

undescribable

this pain

its prison

consuming

of me

in whole

and without

sweet relief

agony

i delve into

this undefined

emotion

left

in absence

of where

here you

once were

its suffocation

this ache

undescribable

this pain

its prison

consuming

of me

in whole

and without

sweet relief

where we lay

in pieces

scattered

within the narrow

in this space

amongst

the wilted

and the grey

under these leaves

which hang from

this tree

sifting through

this gentle humidity

this is where we lay

surrounded by the calm

this vacancy is filled

with controlled temptation

and withheld emotion

only here we allow this

this that which

we choose to deny

this of which

remains unspoken

where all lies

are lost

by where it is

most comfortable

most wanted

where the truth is stripped

laid out before us

this design

these pieces

a most unique

of self

found within self

of the other

un

i am unfounded

i sift

this unexplainable

searching

any solution

but most assuredly

the unattainable

this clarity

a truth i deny

and in its refusal

i missed

this most unexpected

to which has become

constant

for here and now

has revealed itself

long before

either knew

unaware

that self could exist

in a truth

without question

an unpredictable

equation

i cannot admit

that even I could

ever understand

in the unfolding

events

i processed

that which we allowed

to dissolve

into the nothingness

from the dilapidation

of mine own

untrusting self

within this ever-changing

wind of morrow

and i lift upon this

a slow and narrow climb

I go unannounced

in that

i have arrived